It's crazy how your heart and feelings can transform from one condition to another. It's frightening and also comforting because you know it can heal. Last night we were on a wedding. The song 'Lucky' was on from Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat. I was happy, really glad to hear that song again, my heart could melt, but I was so so sad at the same time. I am not in love with my best friend anymore. We talk and meet rarely, and I know that this is the way it should be. I do not want to take it back or begin again, I am just still sad that it's over. Sometimes I think about the memories and I become blue because they are so sweet it hurts so much. It was so great - we were so great, but it had to end. And I think I can learn to accept it but it takes some time.